Pretty vague. But ok.
My name's Mary, I live outside Nashville. I work two jobs and wish I had more free time. But when I have free time I forget all the things I'd decided to do with it. I haven't been making videos lately because I just moved and my life is insane at the moment. I had a New Year's Eve/Housewarming party two nights ago that only 6 friends came to. It was fun, but opened my eyes to the fact that a lot of people don't care. Much more than half of the invitees didn't even bother to RSVP.
I try not to be a bitter person, but I am not happy with my life. I try to identify the things that make me unhappy, but am having little success. I just want to be happy. Or maybe deep down I don't?
I have a hard time with myself. Rationally I know I am interesting, fun, and a good friend, but few seem to recognize it. At least not the ones I want to see. So I start thinking I am actually none of those things. I am unhappy with the reactions I receive from people, and therefore unhappy with myself. And because I am unhappy with myself, I don't receive satisfactory reactions from others.
I know I shouldn't place such value in what others think, and I'm trying to change that. Trying to escape this circle.
So....yeah. Makes me sound terribly insecure and depressed. Which...I guess I am. But I try to live like a normal person and be pleasant most of the time. Though I'm not normal at all.
So...I thought I would try this. I may or may not keep up with it! haha. I'll probably insert some video entries, as this is mostly a video blog. :)
I got it from my friend Samantha
30 DAY CHALLENGE
•Day 01 – Introduce yourself
•Day 02 – Your first love
•Day 03 – Your parents
•Day 04 – What you ate today
•Day 05 – Your definition of love
•Day 06 – Your day
•Day 07 – Your best friend
•Day 08 – A moment
•Day 09 – Your beliefs
•Day 10 – What you wore today
•Day 11 – Your siblings
•Day 12 – What’s in your bag
•Day 13 – This week
•Day 14 – What you wore today
•Day 15 – Your dreams
•Day 16 – Your first kiss
•Day 17 – Your favorite memory
•Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
•Day 19 – Something you regret
•Day 20 – This month
•Day 21 – Another moment
•Day 22 – Something that upsets you
•Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
•Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
•Day 25 – A first
•Day 26 – Your fears
•Day 27 – Your favorite place
•Day 28 – Something that you miss
•Day 29 – Your aspirations
•Day 30 – One last moment
Yes, I know I've missed a day already. Still doing it. :P
Which means I will be here until at least next October.
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thought you guys might like it. Team Unicorn!
While I have been posting my videos here on Mary Lou Who, I have also been posting them on my youtube channel, MaryLouWhoBlog. At first, the idea was simply to have a place to host my videos. Since then, however, I have met a lot of really cool people on youtube. I have recently started working on a couple of projects with them. They are called collaborative channels, or channels on which more than one person posts. I post videos once a week on each one. I encourage you to check them out - the people I'm working with are really cool!
Around The World Vlogs Here, I post videos every Saturday pertaining to fandom and various subjects, entitled "Solidarity Saturday"
Five Days of Awesome Here, I post videos every Wednesday pertaining to that week's topic.
I look like Scully today in my trench coat and badge. X-Files FTW!
