I'm entering a contest to help get some publicity for my vlog...please help me out!
Yes, it is to win a date. Heaven knows I need one! :P

Head over to the video, give it a thumbs up, and leave a comment! Cookies for all who do! <3 you!

Doing this for day 4, which was yesterday. And also not doing it because I ate a lot. Ashamed. :(

Blah, I am a fail. I can't keep up with something for one day. My bad!

Time to talk a little about my parents. First off, I love them. And they raised me quite well, I think. I'm not a serial killer nor do I think Snooki is a good role model. I cry every time they leave and miss them like crazy. Though I think there are a few things I wish they'd done differently.

I started to write this whole thing about some things my parents could have changed. But it became so complicated and confusing I just got rid of it.

The only thing I can say, really, is that I wish they had instilled more self confidence in me. I wish I had talked to them about my lack of it. I wish we all had made a better effort to be close to each other.

But our relationship has been getting steadily better since I left for college. I'm finally getting to know them as people. I can only hope that I won't be afraid to let them do the same.

Hmmm my first love. What am I supposed to say here? It was in high school, and great while it lasted. But we grew apart, college and all that, you know how it is. We had been friends since 2nd grade or so, hated each other in middle school, and dated for a year when I was a junior. Our first kiss was on my 17th birthday, at the Sadie Hawkins dance. Still probably one of the best birthdays ever. Just before we started dating, we were in the school musical together, "The Sound of Music." He played Captain Von Trapp, and I played Liesl. Yeah, it was a little weird to have a crush on your ficticious dad. haha!

Pretty vague. But ok.
My name's Mary, I live outside Nashville. I work two jobs and wish I had more free time. But when I have free time I forget all the things I'd decided to do with it. I haven't been making videos lately because I just moved and my life is insane at the moment. I had a New Year's Eve/Housewarming party two nights ago that only 6 friends came to. It was fun, but opened my eyes to the fact that a lot of people don't care. Much more than half of the invitees didn't even bother to RSVP.
I try not to be a bitter person, but I am not happy with my life. I try to identify the things that make me unhappy, but am having little success. I just want to be happy. Or maybe deep down I don't?
I have a hard time with myself. Rationally I know I am interesting, fun, and a good friend, but few seem to recognize it. At least not the ones I want to see. So I start thinking I am actually none of those things. I am unhappy with the reactions I receive from people, and therefore unhappy with myself. And because I am unhappy with myself, I don't receive satisfactory reactions from others.
I know I shouldn't place such value in what others think, and I'm trying to change that. Trying to escape this circle.
So....yeah. Makes me sound terribly insecure and depressed. Which...I guess I am. But I try to live like a normal person and be pleasant most of the time. Though I'm not normal at all.

30 Day Challenge

So...I thought I would try this. I may or may not keep up with it! haha. I'll probably insert some video entries, as this is mostly a video blog. :)

I got it from my friend Samantha


•Day 01 – Introduce yourself
•Day 02 – Your first love
•Day 03 – Your parents
•Day 04 – What you ate today
•Day 05 – Your definition of love
•Day 06 – Your day
•Day 07 – Your best friend
•Day 08 – A moment
•Day 09 – Your beliefs
•Day 10 – What you wore today
•Day 11 – Your siblings
•Day 12 – What’s in your bag
•Day 13 – This week
•Day 14 – What you wore today
•Day 15 – Your dreams
•Day 16 – Your first kiss
•Day 17 – Your favorite memory
•Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
•Day 19 – Something you regret
•Day 20 – This month
•Day 21 – Another moment
•Day 22 – Something that upsets you
•Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
•Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
•Day 25 – A first
•Day 26 – Your fears
•Day 27 – Your favorite place
•Day 28 – Something that you miss
•Day 29 – Your aspirations
•Day 30 – One last moment

Yes, I know I've missed a day already. Still doing it. :P


Blog Setup by Kirstin Long of Hello Kirsti. | Copyright 2006 | Blogger Templates by GeckoandFly modified and converted to Blogger Beta by Blogcrowds.
No part of the content or the blog may be reproduced without prior written permission.