Wow, a toughie! Not to mention personal. I have many friends, and several I suppose I would consider 'best' friends. I don't think I could name just one, because all are there for me in different parts of my life. If a best friend is the person you spend the most time with, I'd say Melissa or Ericka. If it's the person who's been there the most for you emotionally, I'd say Krystal or Alex. If it's the person you can be away from for years and feel like you never parted from when you finally do see each other, that's definitely Brianna, Carter, Kat, and Jess. But I think all of these things are important when choosing a best friend. Do you choose a best friend? I don't know. But I sure will have a lot of bridesmaids.
Well! Isn't this ten times easier than defining love! Ah thank you.
Last night I had a terribly bout of insomnia. This is not something I normally have to deal with, and I'm not certain what caused it. But, I was up until about 3:30 reading, watching tv, trying in vain to sleep, until I actually did fall asleep in my papasan chair. Not exactly the most comfortable place to sleep, but seeing as I only slept for about 3 hours, it wasn't that bad.
Needless to say, I am tired as hell today. Sleepy + work = not good.
I'm here at my desk job until 5, and then I have to be at my retail job at 6 and work there until 9:30 or 10, whenever we get done closing. I do this every friday. While I don't enjoy having my friday nights spoken for, I only work retail once a week so I can't complain too much.
EXCEPT, for the next two weeks I have to work Friday and Saturday nights. Considering I already have plans on the Saturday nights, that sucks. Ah, well.
Anyhow, I'm hoping to meet up with my friend Krystal (whom you've seen in one of my early videos) between jobs. Not sure how that will work out yet but we shall see. After, some of my sorority sisters are going out for one of their birthdays and I really want to go. Not sure how late they'll be out, though, so I may not be able to. And even if I am able to, I may be too tired to do anything. Considering I rolled out of the papasan chair, threw some clothes on, and went to work, I'm not looking my best today.
But you guys don't care about all that. BUT LOOK, I ANSWERED THE QUESTION!!!
Ok, so I obviously fail at the 30 day challenge bit. Me sticking to anything is apparently a bust, as made obvious by my lack of scheduled posts. But I was still having fun answering the questions, so I think I'm going to change it to a 30 question...challenge. Yeah. Like I'll answer the 30 questions whenever I damn well please. :)
So the next on the list is your definition of love.
...what kind of question is that? A silly one, in my opinion. We all know what love is. So guess what? I'm not going to answer it.
I love making the rules.
Doing this for day 4, which was yesterday. And also not doing it because I ate a lot. Ashamed. :(
Labels: challenge
Blah, I am a fail. I can't keep up with something for one day. My bad!
Time to talk a little about my parents. First off, I love them. And they raised me quite well, I think. I'm not a serial killer nor do I think Snooki is a good role model. I cry every time they leave and miss them like crazy. Though I think there are a few things I wish they'd done differently.
I started to write this whole thing about some things my parents could have changed. But it became so complicated and confusing I just got rid of it.
The only thing I can say, really, is that I wish they had instilled more self confidence in me. I wish I had talked to them about my lack of it. I wish we all had made a better effort to be close to each other.
But our relationship has been getting steadily better since I left for college. I'm finally getting to know them as people. I can only hope that I won't be afraid to let them do the same.
Hmmm my first love. What am I supposed to say here? It was in high school, and great while it lasted. But we grew apart, college and all that, you know how it is. We had been friends since 2nd grade or so, hated each other in middle school, and dated for a year when I was a junior. Our first kiss was on my 17th birthday, at the Sadie Hawkins dance. Still probably one of the best birthdays ever. Just before we started dating, we were in the school musical together, "The Sound of Music." He played Captain Von Trapp, and I played Liesl. Yeah, it was a little weird to have a crush on your ficticious dad. haha!
Pretty vague. But ok.
My name's Mary, I live outside Nashville. I work two jobs and wish I had more free time. But when I have free time I forget all the things I'd decided to do with it. I haven't been making videos lately because I just moved and my life is insane at the moment. I had a New Year's Eve/Housewarming party two nights ago that only 6 friends came to. It was fun, but opened my eyes to the fact that a lot of people don't care. Much more than half of the invitees didn't even bother to RSVP.
I try not to be a bitter person, but I am not happy with my life. I try to identify the things that make me unhappy, but am having little success. I just want to be happy. Or maybe deep down I don't?
I have a hard time with myself. Rationally I know I am interesting, fun, and a good friend, but few seem to recognize it. At least not the ones I want to see. So I start thinking I am actually none of those things. I am unhappy with the reactions I receive from people, and therefore unhappy with myself. And because I am unhappy with myself, I don't receive satisfactory reactions from others.
I know I shouldn't place such value in what others think, and I'm trying to change that. Trying to escape this circle.
So....yeah. Makes me sound terribly insecure and depressed. Which...I guess I am. But I try to live like a normal person and be pleasant most of the time. Though I'm not normal at all.
So...I thought I would try this. I may or may not keep up with it! haha. I'll probably insert some video entries, as this is mostly a video blog. :)
I got it from my friend Samantha
30 DAY CHALLENGE
•Day 01 – Introduce yourself
•Day 02 – Your first love
•Day 03 – Your parents
•Day 04 – What you ate today
•Day 05 – Your definition of love
•Day 06 – Your day
•Day 07 – Your best friend
•Day 08 – A moment
•Day 09 – Your beliefs
•Day 10 – What you wore today
•Day 11 – Your siblings
•Day 12 – What’s in your bag
•Day 13 – This week
•Day 14 – What you wore today
•Day 15 – Your dreams
•Day 16 – Your first kiss
•Day 17 – Your favorite memory
•Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
•Day 19 – Something you regret
•Day 20 – This month
•Day 21 – Another moment
•Day 22 – Something that upsets you
•Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
•Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
•Day 25 – A first
•Day 26 – Your fears
•Day 27 – Your favorite place
•Day 28 – Something that you miss
•Day 29 – Your aspirations
•Day 30 – One last moment
Yes, I know I've missed a day already. Still doing it. :P
